Tuesday, March 17, 2009

1 year

if someone told me that in 1 year
that i would be at this point in my life
i would prob. of laughed at them

today marks the 1 year anniversary
of my life changing
process into something better
my rebirth (if you will)
from a year of turmoil and emotional shit

from boyfriends, school, graduation
fear of the future. uncertainty

today marks the 1 year anniversary
that i decided to no longer be the victim
and to start creating something for myself

i'm excellent

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Gay Rights Manifesto

So I already wrote about this topic but I feel that this is better, and shorter. I'm a bad writer, but I think my point gets across.

Gay Rights Manifesto

I am annoyed at the state of the gay right’s movement. Something that affects many people has become a parade, a show of sex driven machines and Halloween costume wearing fat men. How effective is a parade of men wearing dresses when it comes to something as serious as federal level change in civil rights. What the Gay right’s movement loses in context to the civil right’s movement is substance. Substance in a figurehead, substance in a their methods of change, substance in their people. The gay right’s movement lacks substance.

When history looks at the civil right’s movement, it looks at Martin Luther King Jr. The gay right’s movement lacks a “Martin Luther King Jr.” There are no substantial figureheads that have taken the lead of the gay right’s movement. There is a rise in celebrity advocates like Ellen Degenerous but nothing like Martin Luther King Jr.

The gay right’s movement method of change is that the gay people are victimized and then they sue. Never is it an aggressive progressive attack on civil right’s inequalities such as not being able to ride a bus because of their color. Instead the gays are first victimized and then legally combat the attacker. The difference is that African-American’s fought with equality, to be recognized as equals to white and should be able to ride the bus. The gay right’s movement fights for their civil rights through branding people homophobic and insensitive to changing perspectives to gays. Instead of changing minds, the gays try to force civil rights. Where were the gays when proposition 8 was in ballot? Proposition 8 being passed in liberal California is ridiculous. Gays are not branding the black vote insensitive to the same civil rights plights they both shared.

Go to any gay right’s protest and what you will hear is, “We’re Here, We’re Queer, Get Used to it!” Get used to what? Gay right’s protest are filled with half naked gay men, Drag queens, etc, it’s quite a sight to be seen. It is certainly not a place to take the children. African American’s have been assimilated into society in such a way that we no longer factor their color when having a social interaction. However everyone knows when someone is gay, everyone has a “gaydar.” Why does everyone have a gaydar? Because being gay has become a pretentious aspiration to become what the media portrays. The people, including gays, see what the media portrays and it has gone to the point that we not only recognize it in television but in the gays around us. Why do Gays have a gay pride day? African American doesn’t have a Black Pride day. Gays have become something to be recognized, not the regular gay Joe, but the sexually active, physically perfect, well-groomed, gay Joe.

Where does that leave me? Will I ever get equal civil rights when my peers go about tarnishing how gays are perceived? Maybe one day the activities and what homosexuality today stands for will align with social’s current norms. But until that day, we are doomed to be second-class citizens until we desperate ourselves by changing out of our very alternative lifestyles.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

dear self

i am going to set goals for myself that are the best for ME.

i am not:

1. going to base my decision on the greatest person in the world, Zach.

2. am not going to be a dramatic homosexual

3. talk about math in front of zach like he knows what you are talking about

4. make your decision soon about either leaving Parsons soon or not